Old Flames Part II

I have this feeling that because of the way my relationship with Nathan ended, there are all these untied strings I'll never be able to sort out. This, I feel, is why I keep having old memories fly into my head.

.... Nathan and I begun to hang out more and more. We would hang out together after school. I would go to soccer practice, which he would walk me to. And he would go to play rehearsal. Some days soccer would get out early or I wouldn't have practice that day and I would go see him. At first I was shy and would just sneak over to the auditorium to see him. But Nathan brought me once down to the pit and showed me what he was up to. (We were sophomores by the way.) It was in the evening and I had flip flops and shorts on. A big no no around a 'construction site'. Nathan was a part of construction crew for the play and he wanted to show me around. If Dempsey- the teacher- had found out I was back there, I probably would have gotten in trouble, but Nathan and I didn't care. Well... Nathan didn't care, I like to be the obedient one and I was terrified I would get in trouble. Nevertheless, I still stayed, and she never showed up. I didn't know anyone and was and violently introduced to the theatre departments personality.

Random girl talking to some guy: "Hey hold your hand up and spread your finger apart."
Confused he does. She takes out a measuring device and measures from pinky to thumb.
"Nope not the biggest." She looks at Nathan and orders him to do the same thing. . . "Yep Nathan's is the biggest so far!"
Laughter. And a bit of an embarrassed face on Nathan. A very little bit.
I didn't get it. I thought I did and felt very uncomfortable. Nathan noticed my embarrassment and told me "not to worry, just ignore them."
And since it was Nathan. Just hearing him say that was enough for me. Maybe this type of introduction doesn't seem violent to you, but I was particularly sheltered and protected from crass and sexual conversations. Which I am glad of, although I wish I did feel more comfortable with their types of conversations, because I could have responded a bit better than a stupid blank stare and bright red cheeks.

Soon after, Nathan and I started dating. It was paradise. We never argued. We had so much fun and we understood each other better than anyone else. I think we may have been a bit of an odd couple. I was 5'2" and he was 6'3". That may have really only been the one odd thing about us.